I apologize for my lack of blogging. My life turned upside down with the sudden death of my Mother in February 2018. All of my blogging was done on Facebook and Caring Bridge for the last year.I wanted to take a second and thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers through what was undoubtedly one of the most difficult times in my life!
Life is interesting, there are always so many twists and turns. I chose to share publicly versus go through everything in private. Some of my relatives didn’t understand my need to share and hear from my “digital” friends. The funny thing is that my “digital” friends and family really helped me through everything. I believe that every little prayer and positive thought fueled our family. I would read the posts to my Mom and she would smile and take it all in, especially the stories, so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
My hopes and dreams for the last 2 years were completely wrapped up in my Mom, making memories, fighting the big “C” and surviving. Now she is gone and I am struggling. She was my best friend, my mentor, my cheerleader and my biggest fan. Every time I had a crisis of faith, or didn’t think I was good enough, I would walk away from my Mom believing I could do anything!
I recently read the “Wisdom of Walt” by Jeffrey Barnes, and yes it was a book about Disney, but it was more taking life leadership lessons from everything Disney did and said. The one major piece I took away is that you need to share your ideas, no matter how big, no matter how small. Walt dreamed up the idea of Disneyland while sitting on a park bench, if he had never shared his dream, it would have died on the park bench. Where do your great ideas go? I know that personally, I have left some on the “park bench” somewhere. I need to rediscover my dreams. I need to figure out a new path to forge. I need to step out of my comfort zone. I am not exactly sure what that looks like right now, but I know it needs to happen. I need to feed my soul and I need to learn and experience new things. I need to learn to dream again.
I have given myself 3 goals to try and jumpstart my thinking.
1) I will blog and tweet more often. I will believe that someone is interested in what I have to say.
2) I will get back into the regular habit of reading blogs. Feel free to suggest some I should be following.
3) I will try not to “get lost” in my loss but use that energy to move forward. (This is probably the most difficult goal for me)
Today I will leave you with a #booksnap I created from the “Wisdom of Walt”.